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Still mentally unfit, but I'll try...

Used as a money printing scheme, I was evicted from my previous homeshare where I had a basement suite into this one inside a 2.5m x 2.5m bedroom, where my Govt money was used to fund the landlords to have a baby. The baby is now born & it means insane amounts of me time that I can't interrupt. This also means no food is prepared when nursing is more important.

My friend tried to get a Toyota Corolla to help but he needs a $250 alternator. Unfortunately he's also being loan sharked by his peers at the moment.

My roommate was evicted over not being correctly monitored for his medication changes, for which my landlords don't know what mental health means & kept calling 911.

Please give. Anything helps.

North American donations: ko-fi.com/jackvancouver/goal?g…

EU donations: gofund.me/007216f9

#emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #emergencyaidneededrightnow #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded #aspie #aspielife @autistics @actuallyautistic

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Because I was moved from a basement suite into a super tiny bedroom, I'm paying $200/month to store what couldn't fit in a storage locker. This has severely hampered my own ability to enjoy leisure and me time because the bedroom is already too small and was always according to my social workers going to be temporary placement. The financial stress also means I don't have enough for leisure or hobbies.

I am unable to cook for myself because the social worker has banned both using the stove and oven and banned using my own countertop appliances because my landlord said so. This is why I cannot use a food bank as these bans mean I cannot get fresh food to cook.

In the recent week, my landlords have neglected restocking emergency instant ramen supplies so I have no backup food remaining.

The only option I have that will please the household and uphold my "model tenant" standing is to eat out.

I am currently at $0 until Wednesday.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

My psychologist delivered a letter in writing to my agencies (my social worker and CLBC) but it seems they are ghosting both of us. One year ago it was agreed upon that this was always going to be temporary placement. Now they seem content on making me stay and suffer for long enough until my next eviction.

My roommate being evicted is evidence that my social workers are trying to find any way to evict someone such as not warning about medication changes or trying everything to upset me, like using triggering language that you should "blame yourself" for being "too needy."

They also use tortious interference to make sure outcomes do NOT come out in your favor. I was going to get another basement suite a year ago, but tortious interference said "but you can get more money if you sold this on the market" THE SECOND I was happy with moving into the place. Same with being accused of arson. "Oh yeah, our clients set fires all the time."

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Currently, both official support and peer support are all ghosting me. I have spoken to a local MLA and they have also given up on me. Past donations have helped immensely to ease the tension and has currently resolved a lingering bill payment date issue, but more help is needed.

My friend has become a hermit because his own government checks aren't arriving fast enough to fight back at his friends that are loan sharking him. I need enough to survive until Wednesday. Kofi should arrive faster than GoFundMe because I've noticed delays when not using Kofi.

$50 would go a long way, since I live in one of the cities with the highest cost of living in Canada.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

I fully understand why support for me has basically died. I became enveloped in toxic thoughts because of my situation and aired a grievance far too publicly. At least sympathize that I am currently filled with immense guilt that I even said something so distasteful and I was previously leading into being driven to insanity to even say that in the first place.

Time and patience are not working in my favor. As newfound friends also ghost me, I am pretty much self fulfilling prophecizing being abandoned then going insane enough again to have a police incident and potential suicide attempt.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

if an emergency event doesn't claim my life as a self fulfilling prophecy, I would still wish nothing more than to enter a coma and never wake up, being declared brain dead. I don't even care if I forget to register as an organ donor after my brain death, because I won't be able to feel anymore.

If everyone gives up on me, I may as well "just die" like the "guess I'll just die." meme.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

No, I don't know what it's like to be a parent and probably never will to a human being, (only potentially to a cat) but the issue isn't that mistreatment is invalid because what else could these people do... the problem is my social worker trapped me into this situation fully knowing they want me to wither away and become retarded and not stand up for myself. That's the government eugenics at play, because criticism is causing me to genuinely question whether I contribute enough to society to mean anything. I don't. So why should I keep living if I'm restrained to a retard's life and forced to be spoon fed because they do not wish for me to live an independent life? #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

I used to have ambition for life. My previous eviction robbed that from me and placed me in a "temporary" environment that somehow then became permanent via neglect. As I progressively start thinking more about death every day, if I'm also questioning why I should bother living if I fail so badly to understand a neurotypical society due to indisputable criticisms, and I have no path forward to heal, you can see why I would want to enter a coma then never wake up again, or seek medical assistance in dying. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

and unfortunately, even though the police gave a warning to not disturb me when I arrived home, the landlords made noise regardless because nothing was going to stop their party. They directly defied the police telling them about it. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Internet paid. Thanks to all who donated to help make that on time payment happen. It also allowed me to observe a gigantic success on something that I follow which I will not disclose.

Unfortunately my friend tried to get an alternator from a car scrapper and he missed his chance because the one that was available got sold. He said he will now not be able to help anyone until November or later. I officially have no reliable peer support.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

So... apparently I had the wrong CLBC case worker for A YEAR because of catchment changes... and no one told me. So nobody was able to do anything as I was dealing with a case worker that handles the wrong catchment.

Also, I have put up an apology thread as it is very necessary in order for receiving support to continue.

furry.engineer/@JackRacc/11508…

Please forgive me as lack of knowledge of context and extreme frustration at the time made it seem far worse than I anticipated. I am once again deeply sorry.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Yes, let's reset ALL THE BREAKERS risking damage to everything electronic in the house just to fix a broken oven... Also, they did cook food... but they're busy with Tiktok... for the last 5 hours. Portioning it out? What does that mean? #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

There are labels for what each breaker does, but my landlords are so stupid they reset every breaker until they get the thing they want working actually working. This risks damages due to electrical surges to my PC and the rest of the stuff connected. Asking won't work because they'll think it's "english gibberish" and just do it again next time it happens. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

What better way to celebrate Trans Rights day at home than to be bombarded with a newlywed couple staying off the record at our place as an AirBnB, explaining how you should abstain before marriage, that it has to be cis male marrying cis female, and family is always first, meaning "having real babies," like any good Christian would.

I'm subject to absolute toxicity.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

They're nursing and Netflix and Chilling at 2AM... cutting into the time I need to heat my food.

Not only that, they let so much ice build up on a frozen meal that the rice has turned into paste.

Basically eating prison food at the moment.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

It's extremely unsettling to learn that I'm basically treated like a property investment that makes my landlords money, and not a human being. My psychologist thinks my landlords are purposely ignoring my needs because they can get away with it so long as the money keeps flowing.

I am currently no closer to a solution.

I have also surrendered all my savings to a friend just so they could have a functioning vehicle.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

My landlords decided today that no air conditioning was normal in an attempt to assert themselves as the homeowners by telling me tongue-in-cheek "This is not your house, this is not your kitchen. Your comfort means nothing to us. We just want your money."

I am veering ever so closer to an eviction.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

In addition to this subversive manipulation, me lacking funds because I helped my friend's car out will lead to more tension guaranteed. I need your help more than ever over the next 3 weeks. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Just as I was about to go up for food with the staircase lights turned off, I found out instead the landlord was cleaning house, and gave me a death stare as if she was going to murder me if I came close to her child. Guess I won't eat anything then. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

I have just paid $260 out of pocket to my friend and have only $50 remaining for food until the 24th. All I can do is hope for a better outcome for myself at the moment because the landlords are trying their best to get me evicted just like they did my roommate. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

More sensory overload, this time they're dumping perfume over themselves and the smell is so strong it's causing me to hardlock due to sensory overload. Talking won't work because they're not smart enough to know. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid #actuallyautistic
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in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

A song on the radio just told me "Don't be so hard on yourself." and "It's your life."

I wish I had the mental capacity to heal at the moment. If I did, this life advice song would have meaning.

#aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid #actuallyautistic

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in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

it seems Guppe Groups has stopped boosting my posts. If support has completely died off this will be the last post I will make about my situation and will be the last post of this thread.
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

URGH. Domain seizure... those bastards.

social.growyourown.services/@F…


Okay, some really bad news but also a suggestion for a way forward.

The Guppe groups domain name was sold by their registrar before they could renew it. This means all Guppe groups are broken, and their web addresses point to a spam blog 😞

However, there is another group provider called FediGroups, you can find out more on their site:

➑️ about.fedigroups.social/home

FediGroups has features that Guppe never had, including private groups.

(More info about #Guppe situation: github.com/immers-space/guppe/… )


in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

once again, here are the important links for this thread. I need this more than ever because my landlords have indicated they are now using passive aggression to weasel me into an eviction.

I would also love to get the $260 I sacrificed to my friend back so that I have buffer money for the worst case scenario of a forced eviction.

North American donations: ko-fi.com/jackvancouver/goal?g…

EU donations: gofund.me/007216f9

#emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #emergencyaidneededrightnow #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

I am officially down to $13 remaining for the month. My friend won't be able to see the amount I paid him put to work until next Friday. If the current pace of my landlords requiring 1001% me time continues, I will have no money by tomorrow. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
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in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

I have zero peer support for the next week. My official supports are going through bureaucratic red tape at the moment, and I am out of money. I could really use some help to survive until the 24th, especially since I sacrificed $260 to my friend so he could try to help, only to still be held back by his own paychecks. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #MutualAidRequest #mutualaidneeded
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Just started receiving extortion threats via one of my donation pages. I will not tolerate this and will forward messages like this to the appropriate abuse filing emails.

I'm at my most vulnerable and extortion seems to be what scammers want to do to me. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

While I am once again extremely appreciative of the donations, they're arriving via traditional bank transfers so I don't have a way to immediately use it as it's the weekend. Kofi is faster but after I get it fees would have been deducted. Everyone is currently ghosting me. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Again, I can't thank the incoming donations enough, and it will be helpful once it arrives, it's just it's the weekend, and Netflix and Chill with the baby has once again resumed with no end in sight.

Even though fees might eat up most of it, what I need right now are Kofi donations so I can have a pizza to counteract them squatting in the living room and not allowing me to warm my food in peace, as they find my vibe disturbing enough to threaten the baby. (Which could have been avoided if they actually genuinely cared about my mental health, but they don't) #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

my landlords turned OFF the AC in the living room on the final hottest day of the year WHILE ALSO USING AN AIR FRYER THAT HEATS THE AIR MORE. I said it's hot, but they did the tongue in cheek "you don't live here, and this is not your house." play. I need Kofi donations NOW to combat this by eating out. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #MutualAidRequest #mutualaidneeded #EmergencyAid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Everyone is in the living room squatting it with "good vibes only" time basically telling me to scram that it's not my house and it's not my kitchen to warm my food. They are there to make sure I don't turn on the air conditioner. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

While I was writing my previous post, my blood sugar dropped into the danger zone. How the heck am I gonna translate that into African? Worst part is the wife who previously worked as a nurse DOESN'T CARE. She really wants me for my money, not to be cared for. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Social worker made a surprise visit and is hell bent on not making things work with my psychologist, saying "oh they're your therapist, I don't go through therapists."

Government eugenics at work, because I signed papers specifically to make things work with effective communication between my psychologist coordinating everything to better my life, AND SHE STILL SAID NO.

#aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

MULTIPLE DEATH STARES while I was warming my food because that action alone was cutting into the landlord's me time. They had a break at 8PM but chose to resume 1001% me time just now and I unfortunately disturbed it. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Living in my city is so expensive. I got $240 in donations. I gave $200 to my friend to make the trip to get his car on Vancouver Island happen. It was then $20 for a meal and $10 for top up groceries. I'm down to $10 again.

Tonight was "housewives meeting" night so I couldn't disturb them at all, and now it's back to 1001% me time well past midnight.

My social worker is still purposely ghosting my psychologist who is actually interested in helping me with logistics for a better life.

It remains to be seen what day my friend will choose to go to Vancouver Island as the person holding the car now works weekdays.

Since it's heading into the weekend, please use Kofi to donate as the other method won't arrive in time to help.

#aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

No meals were prepared for me at all tonight because it was a party night followed by Netflix and Chill. Donations I have incoming are being held up by the fact it's a weekend. I could really use direct help via Kofi. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Well, because it's a national holiday tomorrow, any donations I would have received via the slower method may not get here until Thursday. Peer supports have indicated their actions won't resume until our shared welfare/disability check on Wednesday... but because of the holiday being on a Tuesday, I have no clue if I'm getting anything Wednesday. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

If there is a holiday, disability benefits are bumped up to be paid earlier. But Wednesday isn't a holiday so you'll probably get paid the same as you usually do.
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in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Unfortunately looks like my friend may have run into a "fixing what wasn't broken and fixating on the wrong thing" issue with the car they have on Vancouver Island. They gave up on it for now, meaning no meaningful progress can be made, as I have no other friends locally willing to help that can drive. I currently do not see a way out of my mess. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

The good news: electrical situation with that car is sorted. The engine now runs fine.

The bad news: all tires will need to be replaced.

I gave $200 to my friend hoping they will do the replacement soon.

This means I am down to $18 for the week until Friday.

#aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

a completely random off the record AirBnB tenant is now staying with us so I have a complete stranger in the house to contend with. They gave them a garage opener fob and now I could literally run into this stranger at any time if I exit my bedroom. Just moments after establishing trust with communication, they destroy it by just letting a stranger stay for cash based rent... #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Friend that successfully brought over the car they had on Vancouver Island now says there's a coolant issue and the water pump might be bust. In case this needs a deep engine inspection for overheating damage, I could use some help to send their way. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

landlords basically asserted that this was THEIR house and I didn't need to meddle with their business when I pressed about the stranger, who turned out to be another "uncle."

Uncle seems to be a euphemism for off the record AirBnB stayovers. They basically said they were within their right not to tell me anything.

I can't even begin to state how wrong this is, knowing I'm used as a money printer. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

My tax return is once again half to a quarter of what I was expecting. Still need help as I promised my friend help if I had a full tax credit payment, only to get a quarter of what was expected. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

adding insult to injury from my pitifully low tax return, the donation I got is held up by it being a weekend. Need some immediate help via Kofi. My friend still needs around $400 for tires. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Here is a video provided by my friend of the car successfully running. However it needs the correct season for the tires (that also deflate overnight) and needs a new fuel pump and surrounding assembly.

This car is incredibly important as my psychologist got my social worker to agree to use my friend to view potential new placements, now that my landlords have become insufferable. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Looks like the tire problem is worse than expected. The incorrect wheels were paired with the incorrect tires. My friend risked doing severe damage to his drivetrain ball joints. This effectively doubles the cost to include new wheels and new tires together and I desperately need that car working to view new placements. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #MutualAidRequest #mutualaidneeded #EmergencyAid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

The landlord is literally sleeping in the living room with the baby during what's supposed to be my supper time. I've been threatened not to disturb her or else she will re-assert that the house I live in is not my house and not my kitchen, and will gossip to my social worker to carry through an eviction just because she felt I disturbed her vibe. All her "uncles" are in agreement. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #MutualAidRequest #mutualaidneeded #EmergencyAid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Well, I managed to get my friend whatever was left so that my personal sacrifice meant the car could get fixed, but I'm waiting on the next donation to come in, and it looks like it's going to be very late, as in Thursday or later late. My balances are currently at $0 because I gave my friend my entire balance expecting the two incoming donations to be close to each other. This may not be the case and I may be without any money to fight back against the landlord banning me from having food in the house by once again saying "this is not your house." Please help via Kofi, it's the fastest method at the moment. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #MutualAidRequest #mutualaidneeded #EmergencyAid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

was only given half of what was usually given for meals cooked by the landlord. It's almost like they want to force me to eat out to reclaim their me time and vibe checks. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

and the landlord has begun squatting the living room demanding 1000% me time again, or else she will make threats that I don't belong in this house by passive aggressively saying "this isn't your house, living room or kitchen" as if I was a child of the devil and they want a correction using every method short of an exorcism. As Christians they have the full capability of exercising an exorcism if they find out I support LGBTQ by being a furry. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #MutualAidRequest #mutualaidneeded #EmergencyAid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

To share with you just how badly the previous eviction has affected me, I have not purchased a single game on Steam for a year and it has disqualified me from the Steam Community Market. I want to return to normality, but it looks like that STILL has to wait. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

to share how unsettling being upstairs is with the stranger "uncle" tenant, he looks like Olson from "Man of Medan." #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid

Edit: It seems the true intent of this post was completely lost. This is an expression of my autistic brain trying to find out what and why in terms of correlations. That's the truth.

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in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

I am not going to welcome projection of innocent intent to skew it into malicious intent. Comparisons are a part of being autistic. Projections to gain the upper moral ground is... I honestly have no words for how that is acceptable behavior.

Last time was because I didn't know something was slanderous. This time it's literally a direct comparison, no subtext or sub-context.

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

My friend just told me all of the money has been spent to make the car drivable, but there remains no money for plates or insurance. It is now impossible to speed up processes to get the car fully roadworthy. A day pass was spent to drive for a single day, but that's it. An old timing belt wasn't replaced and there is no money to have anything more replaced until our next check.

I am ready to concede. I am fully prepared to blow the entire check to make sure my friend is able to progress, while having no money to fight the neglect I face. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Now my friend has asserted that they want to move at their own pace, meaning I am unable to seek their assistance before they raise their own money for tuning up the car. This forces me to rely on my abusive parents for viewing new living arrangements. Moving out I can only rely on a previous different friend's Dad's van... problem is the mother has crippling chronic anxiety and says no to everything.

Combine this with NON STOP FOOT STOMPING tonight and I'm about to snap. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

It has returned to donations are currently temporary fixes to improve my current mental health, rather than forward looking money to improve both me and my friends' lives moving forward.

Everywhere is practically out of stock on the CPU I would have purchased if I decided not to fix up my friend's car. My friend is in neurotypical focus mode for the upcoming convention. My current state would make me completely insecure and anxious at the convention and just be a debbie downer.

It's come back to I need money to fund the CPU in case this is the last shipment of these CPUs ever. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid

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in reply to Goiterzan/Amygdalai Lama

@punishmenthurts I don't know what to do anymore. I had to say something and not be a bystander. I spoke to someone equally as abandoned so I wouldn't kill myself.
in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

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in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

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in reply to lizzzzard

@lizzard The landlords were told by the social workers that setup my living arrangements that their clients regularly set housefires. My then landlords NEVER let go of that thought and it led to my then eviction.

It's also "framing me" not "training me"

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in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Hope this helps. Flag any errors and I'll edit, didn't proofread.

I lost my first landlord and place to a sudden death out of nowhere. I was evicted because good will only lasted so long.

I lost my second landlord and place to government eugenics framing me as an arsonist, and them not being able to let that go to adapt to my needs. I was evicted because of stubbornness in adapting to help me rather than use me as free money.

My roommate got evicted because my current landlords didn't care to monitor his condition when the psychiatrist was adjusting medication. He entered psychosis and was deemed a threat.

Now, just before a consensual move to potentially a new place that works out better, my last close friend terminates our friendship because he wants to choose neurotypicals over neurodiverse due to strong trauma of being treated like he was retarded, when he in fact does not have the characteristics of autism with missing social cues and being unable to pick up body language.

Meanwhile, my landlords continue to treat me like property instead of a human being. Like a dog that just needs food and water rather than a human that has serious mental health issues that need correction.

This leaves me with actually zero friends left. I was suicidal for 24 hours and the thought of ending my life still is in the back of my head. Without help, I will have a meltdown, snap, and lead to something I will regret... but then if I'm not around to regret it, that seems fair that the pain has a definite end.

in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

I'm heartbroken because a simple decision out of my control erased decades of potential ambition. I'm left to basically submit to government eugenics because I have lost everyone able to help. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

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in reply to Jack Zhang (πŸ“ΉπŸ¦ Raccoon)

Landlord is doing Amazon Prime Video and Chill with the baby again requesting 1000% me time, preventing me from warming any food due to the "this is not your house" assertion. Earlier there was loud foot stomping. I am down to $4 left. #aspie #aspielife #actuallyautistic #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
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@NeuroPunkAF Spread the word to others in your friend network that I need help then. If you use my other method in the first post of this thread, I won't get it immediately but it will arrive later than usual. I just need people able to help this weekend.

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