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Trauma/ Abuse
My parents had a very specific plan for my life, regardless of what I wanted. Any deviation from it was met with physical and mental abuse. So no matter how many skills I have right now or things I enjoy, still feel like a complete failure at times because I didn’t do the things my parents wanted me to do (become an engineering faculty at the most prestigious university in our country).
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@me Oh yeah they did. They couldn’t just accept that I’m not as good as the rest and how can I not want to do it. They had no regards for my own desires
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@Darth Festivus πŸŽ„ I know a thing or two about not living up to parental expectations. Fortunately for me, mine weren't abusive and have always tried to be supportive.

That said, being told repeatedly about how you'll ruin your life if you don't graduate from school makes getting expelled (which is a whole story unto itself) pretty traumatic.

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Trauma / Abuse / depression
I had a complete mental breakdown and severe depression once I got into college but my parents pretended everything was alright because they were getting everything they ever wanted. I never made faculty, heck I barely passed my bachelor program (in a more logical setting I should’ve dropped out ages ago).
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@secretsloth lol thank you! Being a parent myself and working with a therapist has helped me with a lot of it. But sometimes I still get maudlin when I think about others’ parents
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I do too, I kinda just don't know what "normal" parenting might have felt like, and people with normal parents and normal in-laws (even the stereotypical semi combative in-law thing) just baffle me a bit. It feels like a lot of standard life experiences, weren't there for me, and it makes it hard to relate to a lot of folks (as though autism didn't make it hard enough already lol) ugh. I try to give my kid what I didn't have. πŸ’œ
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Trauma / Abuse / depression

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@farah
> I had a complete mental breakdown and severe depression once I got into college

For me, last years of high school. Once before I left home. Again, much worse, about a year later, after moving to a different city and a school I'd chosen.

Everything was great at first, best 6 months of my life. Then came the seasonal black dog, and I started to struggle with *everything*. Hating myself, every day, for my weakness, for not coping with the emotional abyss opening up beneath me.

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My parents were just perpetually disappointed in me. My dad especially when I wound up in jobs that didn't require a uniform. He wanted me in law enforcement or the military or even security...

The fact I made it as a professional writer which I wanted to be since I was 5 never counted for anything.

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@Krampus Sponge: Fury Road Though this was not always the case for me, the idea of a job that requires a uniform makes my skin crawl now.

That said, I wore a uniform in high school and it eliminated the stress of picking out my clothing in the morning.

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I wore a school uniform. They introduced a uniform because they figured it would blur the lines between the rich and the poor kids. Speaking as one of the latter it did not and I got picked on mercilessly because my clothes were cheap.
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@Krampus Sponge: Fury Road Yeah, for me it was just about the decision paralysis that came from picking what to wear. I solve this now by keeping my clean clothing in a queue in the drawer.

At any rate, the bullies had plenty of other things to pick on me for. I didn't fit into the mainstream education system very well.

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I admire your courage. Thank you for sharing. I won't 🫣

Reading this in the middle of the night after some PTSD nightmare shit is totally on me, but damn I understand why people are so particular about content warnings on here. I'll be more conscious of that from now. Just letting you know because you really could have done me a solid with one of those 🀷

Don't worry, I'll get over it, not your fault πŸ‘Œ

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Anyway I don’t wanna bring down the mood. This was more of a tongue in cheek thing. But some people genuinely showed interest; so I was sharing my bit.

If you ever wanna talk about trauma, childhood or otherwise, I’m here. You can DM me. πŸ’—

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Childhood traumas/autism

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Just yesterday or so I was thinking I wouldn't mind going back to my childhood again. I then had to clarify that I meant the idealized version I was thinking of with just the things I liked and not the real cPTSD inducing version it actually was.

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