When a #neurodivergent person tells you about how something is difficult for them, rather than thinking of them as whiny, consider that this probably means they have a certain level of trust in you to drop their mask enough to do so.
Invalidating that struggle is likely also a pretty effective way of eroding that trust.
#ActuallyADHD
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Just learned that they're shutting the power off tomorrow for 4-5 hours.
That's gonna suck.
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I just put a call to eval in my code and I feel dirty now.
The context went something like this:
(eval (cons 'concat (my-function arg1 arg2)))I had initially hoped to use
(concat . (my-function arg1 arg2))...but this resulted in a call to
(concat my-function arg1 arg2)Which was not what I expected.
Is there a better way I could've written this?
#emacs #lisp #elisp
Edit: Got my answer. I wanted:
(apply 'concat (my-func arg1 arg2))Edit 2:
It turns out the code I really wanted was:
(string-join arg2 arg1)I love reinventing the wheel because I didn't know it was already there.
Edit 3:
Here's the actual code:
(defun lambdamoo-run-text-replacements (str)
"Perform text replacements on the string"
(dolist (vals lambdamoo-text-replacements)
(let* ((from (car vals))
(to (cdr vals))
(split (split-string str from)))
(setq str (string-join split to))))
str)Let's see if there's anything else I've reinvented here.
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@Simon Brooke What I was looking to do was to call concat with the list returned by (my-function arg1 arg2) used as arguments.
As it turns out, all the functionality I was looking for was already supplied by the string-join function. I just didn't know it existed.
(catch :abort
;; do something
(when condition
(message "A bad thing happened")
(throw :abort nil))
;; do something else
)When the functionality I really wanted was:
(progn
;; do something
(when condition
(user-error "A bad thing happened"))
;; do something else
)I knew the former felt sketchy, but I couldn't think of a better way to do it until just now.
#emacs #lisp
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As a Schemer (and formerly/sometimes still Objective-C), everything is pretty verbose, and my own functions even more so, so I can search by function name knowing the type and parameters. (vector-index vec searchfunc), (draw-rect-with-edge-color rect edge-width color), etc.
There's no excuse for hardcore Lisp functions like (wadsf w q) "wander down stack frames for word query" (fictional but not unlikely).
#lisp
#Elisp logic:
All interned symbols can be found in a lookup table. This table is bound to the obarray symbol.
Hang on a minute...
I can only assume that the underlying C code has its own pointer to this table and the obarray symbol is only provided as a convenience for elisp functions that can't see this pointer?
#emacs #lisp
No no, the obarray you see from elisp is the same one used by the reader. Elisp is an old-style Lisp here, and the obarray is a first-class thing: you can make a new one, rebind obarray, etc.
That's the sort of thing people don't do much anymore, but used to do. The documentation covers it reasonably well gnu.org/software/emacs/manual/…
I'm starting to get the impression that my doctor's office is trying to drum up business by giving me repeated heart attacks with vague voicemails about some test results I'm waiting on.
For the record, according to the information I have at this very moment, everything is (probably) fine.
I'm a little self-conscious about it as non-trivial is relative, but...
(defmacro lambdamoo-chatter-interact
(func-name to msg docstring fmtstr &rest vals)
"Define a function for interacting with another player"
(let ((proc (gensym))
(str (gensym)))
`(defun ,func-name (,proc ,str)
,docstring
(let ((,to lambdamoo-chatter)
(,msg (substring-no-properties (lambdamoo-command-text ,str))))
(if ,to
(funcall lambdamoo-send-line ,proc
(format ,fmtstr . ,vals))
(message "No chatter specified"))))))
That's awesome. I need to hear my own advice, of course, but don't be inhibited to share something that isn't finished. It's the Fediverse! We're all anarchists! The kind sort, I mean.
Lisp macros are just so powerful.
Wait, how do you get the awesome code formatting? Anybody know how to configure this on fediscience.org?
AM I GOING TO HAVE TO SPIN UP MY OWN INSTANCE AGAIN
@James Endres Howell Frendica has a markdown add-on.
I just typed:
```lisp
...code...
```Typing that however was trickier.
RIP Sterrance (my #sourdough starter) who met a tragic end in his glass jar at the hands of gravity and the kitchen floor.
Also, happy birthday to Stella who is going to take a bunch of work to make into another viable starter.
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I've been looking to migrate more of my workflow into emacs, in this particular case I'm looking to moo via emacs which I believe you both do?
I believe @screwlisp has mentioned using rmoo, but the only repo I found for that hasn't been updated in over a decade. Is there something more recent I'm not aware of?
> had do a little finessing to get it to installed
out of curiosity: what was the problem?
Is it that I didn't make a (M)ELPA package out of it? (nobody just drops things in their ./emacs directory anymore?)
or some other issue?
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M-x package-install-file, it didn't like that the file didn't end with:;;; mud-mcp.el ends hereI just had to add that and it was all good.
ok, so the answer is indeed
"nobody just drops things in their ./emacs directory anymore"
(really, that's all it's supposed to be.
well okay, that plus
M-x load-library mud-mcp
which is the old-school way of doing things)
(wRog needs to learn MELPA. Film at 11.)
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@Roger Crew✅❌☑🗸❎✖✓✔ @Judy Anderson @screwlisp It essentially already was a valid ELPA package with the mentioned exception.
I'm currently in the process of adding my own custonizations. I've added a rudimebtary shim that processes lines entered bu the user so that it can support commands that get processed on the client side.
Here's an excerpt:
(require 'mud-mcp)
(defun lambdamoo ()
"Connect to LambdaMOO"
(interactive)
(mud-mcp-connect "LambdaMOO" "lambda.moo.mud.org" 8888)
(setq lambdamoo-send-line comint-input-sender
comint-input-sender #'lambdamoo-process-line))
(defconst lambdamoo-commands
'(("send" . lambdamoo-send)
("test" . lambdamoo-test))
"Command functions")
(defvar lambdamoo-send-line nil
"The function that is called to send a line to the server")
(defun lambdamoo-process-line (proc str)
"Process input sent by the user"
(if (string-prefix-p "/" str)
(lambdamoo-process-command proc str)
(funcall lambdamoo-send-line proc str)))
(defun lambdamoo-process-command (proc str)
"Process a command"
(let* ((words (split-string str))
(command (string-trim-left (car words) "/"))
(found (assoc (downcase command)
lambdamoo-commands
#'string=))
(func (and found (cdr found))))
(if func
(funcall func proc str)
(message "Command '%s' not found." command))))After I wrote all this, I found comments in the file detailing how to add functionality.
Is there a more "proper" way I could've done this?
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To the fair folk of the Fedi.
However you choose to deal with the festivities, or don't, or can't, I wish you at least some joy and peace. We are on our way out of the dark and since long before memory or record, humans, it seems, have deemed this worthy of celebrating, at least in some way. But, this may be no more than remembering who you are and realising that the world around us, for all its horror and fear, is still a place of beauty and grace. That there is still kindness and joy and magnificence and the simplest things can show us the most.
So be yourself, enjoy, or not, yourself in the ways that you want to. Let go of shouldn't and what if and all the should be's that plague us. This is not just a time for others, it is your time too. A time to embrace the moment and what we can and we what we have, no matter how little that may seem to be, all the small things and all the great, the stars and the moon (even though we don't have the paperwork for those, and yes, that was a Pratchett reference.) the wind in our hair and everything in between. A time to dream, a time to shine.
Have a good one and wishing you all the best.
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I am dangerously close to unleashing my first #emacs package on the public. It's nothing fancy and still relatively niche, but I deem it potentially useful enough to be worth publishing.
There are a couple small features I want to add and a few things that still need some polish, but it's almost ready for a version 0.1 release.
It's not anything ground breaking or anything. I'm still pretty much an #elisp novice, but I'm proud of it anyway.
More details when it's released.
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@Álvaro R. At this point all I need to add is a README and two features (which will mostly reuse code I've already written just in a slightly different way).
Surprisingly enough, the hardest part of the whole project was getting it to display numbers with thousands separators. That code might exist in the bowels of the calc package, but it was easier to just roll my own.
Okay, my first #Emacs package is officially released. It was strongly inspired by @Soroban Exam Website's work, providing practice tools for the #soroban. This is the first Emacs package I've ever released. It's probably not perfect, but I welcome feedback on how it can be improved.
I wonder if there is an overlap of more than say five people who are both soroban and emacs users. 🙃
Anyhow, it can be found at: codeberg.org/jlamothe/soroban
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vim guy here. happy to see I inspire others...
May be you could post on our forum. Not sure you will get more users, though
@Soroban Exam Website Might as well. I wrote it mainly for myself, partly because I don't own a printer and this makes it easier to practice when working from a computer screen, but also just to see if I could.
Still, if someone else is going to find it useful, that's probably the place I'll find them.
May be you didn't see you that you can generate an interactive HTML output, on the site.
That was designed for people who don't want to print.
Should I make it more visible?
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Well, everything's mostly set up. Cable management needs some definite work, but at least the layout of my desk is more or less unchanged.
The new arrangement makes more logistical sense, but will require some getting used to. Just about every room in the apartment's been rearranged.
format to use a thousands separator? That'd be nifty, but it doesn't look like there is a way.
Katy's been down a YouTube rabbit hole on $medical_condition lately. Today we watched a yoga video that purported to relieve one of the symptoms. Cool cool, yoga can have benefits. Let's give it a go. Some of the instructions in this video were oddly specific but whatever, that's fine. Then we read the comments and my cult alarm started blaring.
This was a video with millions of views and an untold number of comments. Some of them were downright scary in their praise for this guy* and there wasn't a single remotely negative comment to be found.
Not one. I looked.
Someone is really dedicated to sliencing dissent on this video, and I can't imagine that being anything shy of a full-time job. That is probably one of the most massive red flags there is.
* e.g.: "Who needs western medicine? $youtuber is always the answer."
Maybe the best way to fight AI taking over our media, is to stop supporting the arts with clicks on ads and subscription fees?
Go see a new band.
Watch a play.
Visit a gallery and talk to an artist.
Maybe if we made it more about supporting artists, and less about cammodifying the arts for our convenience, we won’t have to lose one of the things that makes humanity great?
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Y BUT Y, that is: digital leftcopY BUT physical rightcopY.
The digital domain is freely accessible, but commercial exploitation remains the prerogative of the author; in all other domains, all rights remain with the author or artist.
Public Administration should then monitor the circulation of digital works and citizens’ preferences, and accordingly fund the artists who publish under a Y BUT Y license.
The US TikTok sale has been signed. The company will be controlled by a joint venture including Oracle, Silver Lake, Andreessen Horowitz, Abu Dhabi-based MGX. Adding a UAE company really makes it clear that this was never about national security concerns.
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They told me no spicy foods until tomorrow, but the curry in my fridge is beckoning...
It's not that spicy. Should I?
I probably shouldn't, right?
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I moved to librewolf it’s feels faster and the ui for it feels like a traditional browser
I’m very happy with my choice
while the recursive name certainly helps, pizza developers use proprietary ingredients while mac and cheese development is fully free. The source code is in the name!
Although you could argue that Kraft Dinner is proprietary, but that's like a proprietary version of UNIX. People just go to it for nostalgia knowing it's way outdated, and any attempt to replicate it will give a better result.
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Taking my first dose of one of the drugs I was instructed to take before my procedure tomorrow.
How am I supposed to take this again?
*reads prescription label*
"Take as directed"
Thanks. 🙃
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I'm freezing! 🥶😭Oh world
I'm freezing!🥶😭Oh world
I'm freezing!🥶😭Oh world
Please, let your kindness warm me tonight so I can buy myself a blanket🙏🥺
chuffed.org/project/161145
Please🙏😞🙏 @gvenema
@tekul @AnnaLion
#Gaza #Palestine #GazaVerified #genocide #famine #warCrimes #StopIsrael #StopTheGenocide #mutualAid
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But for sure, a real home should be what you should get before anything else.
A lot of folks have asked me if I'm serious about relaunching Mozilla after their inevitable collapse.
What I can say with confidence is that if the brand assets become available, I would absolutely look into purchasing them, in the same manner Perifractic "resurrected" Commodore. I am no millionaire, so this would have to be a community-driven thing.
Imagine: everyday people like us banding together to resurrect our beloved browser. I'd absolutely do my part to spearhead that.
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So the procedire in question is a colonoscopy. In addition to the diet they've also prescribed laxatives. I just took the first dose a short while ago. Apparently these things work fast.
It's going to be an interesting night.
The original keyboards used long ago had Ctrl, Super, Hyper, Meta, and ALT keys. We now map Meta (i.e. ESC) to the Alt key on our keyboards as a convenience. I do not believe there is a way, on modern keyboards, to have both META and ALT mapped to a key. We can have Super, and Meta. I can't recall if I was able to map Hyper on a modern keyboard.
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If you want a rigorous analysis of why statistical #AI models collapse when continuously trained on their own data without external supervision and constraints, read this amazing paper from last year.
If you want to get a visual intuition of how model collapse looks like, look at this video.
When AI stares at its own reflection for too long, and its inference is purely rooted on statistics rather than reasoning, this becomes statistically inevitable.
Keep this in mind whenever you hear someone talking about “AI models learning from their own outputs” without addressing the statistical parrot issue.
AI models collapse when trained on recursively generated data - Nature
Analysis shows that indiscriminately training generative artificial intelligence on real and generated content, usually done by scraping data from the Internet, can lead to a collapse in the ability of the models to generate diverse high-quality out…Nature
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The sad thing is, this actually looks official, knowing how Google neutered Incognito mode on Chrome.
Google is actually petty enough to rub that fact in people's faces by making this meme into something official.
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Goiterzan/Amygdalai Lama
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it’s so exhausting, you choose your words correctly and they ignore them and insert their “interpretation,” instead. It’s like talking to the cat. 💜
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Energetic Nova
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I struggle with word interpretation. And you definitely get looked at as bad when you dont follow implicit rules.
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💜
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Ángela Stella Matutina
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It's more profitable for them to "interpret" (distort) than to try to understand. Becomes habit, they do it to each other without thinking. Discard the words and keep their twisted idea of what they meant.
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if it wasn't all of them, you'd call it debilitating paranoia 💜
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I wonder if it comes from reading strategies teachers teach in fiction that causes that…
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Context clues specifically. I realized it might not be obvious what im thinking about.
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Goiterzan/Amygdalai Lama
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I want to use the R-word for the shock value, I want to say, Watch for my next blog, "R-worded by Violence," and I'm serious about it. It should be paranoia, but the same type that's paranoid really is dangerous to everybody, so it's complicated, but that's how I would like to classify them, disabled by their "strength."
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Frequent enough to show a pattern. (I try to not fall into "Us vs. Them" language with my psych, goes without saying.)
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issues with misinterpretation? i was way on the autistic side and my ex was wayyyy on the adhd side and they *always* misinterpreted everything i said, even after multiple conversations that i mean what i say
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Goiterzan/Amygdalai Lama
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gawd, I don't know, I only hatched as Autistic a few years ago . . .
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I've been thinking of Autism and Allism, NTness as opposites, I think I've heard something about people otherwise ND but still Allistic, still not Autistic
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I suppose there could be both sorts, all combinations
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that's all I got, I hope someone has better 💜
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Used to misinterpret often until my twenties but got better at reading people (normies mostly, really). Misinterpretation was an entirely different pattern from the NT one, though.
(Still w/o formal diagnosis here. Personal certainty at 80% for ADHD, > 50% por autism; other things not at all clear but comorbidities are common; late-blooming trans, FWIW, and there are correlations with that.)
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I'm self assessed, and I'm quite sure about Autism, but I'm starting to consider ADHD. I hadn't, because I'm not hyper, my sibling was the hyper one, but I'm starting to be open to it.
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Same. Never could decide if it was closer to an ADHD or autistic trait. See? There's the overlap again.
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@angelastella @punishmenthurts @autistics living with someone w undiagnosed adhd for over a decade has 100% allowed me to discern that i definitely absolutely do not have any features of adhd.
the amount of chaos that a person w adhd has to live with to function has allowed me to definitively learn that i never ever ever ever want to have any sort of relationship with an adhd'er again.
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yeah, I had one high energy older sibling 😬
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Has to live? Hmm. Confirmation that we ADHD fuckers are widely different from each other. I must tolerate my chaos because I cannot control or reduce it, but it hurts me a lot. I lived in ordered environments and didn't become nonfunctional. Autistic need for certain stimuli notwithstanding.
Not defending or justifying anything, just illustrating the AuDHD spectrum.
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Never did really calibrate my personal requirement of these inputs. I think I can manage with sort of an internal generator of novelty, variation, distraction or whatever it is.
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down (and fall asleep amazingly)
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AFAICT that interaction does not usually happen, and I have sensory processing issues that cause me to... malfunction. (Had something close to a meltdown last month during a very noisy, chaotic meeting at a place that had become dark. Not getting visual cues as to who was speaking was the last straw for me.)
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I put myself to sleep like that once, when an acid trip went scary, an emergency shutdown button is handy sometimes
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Now that you mention it, that is what happens to me when I smoke weed above a certain dose. If I remove myself from social stimuli, I fall asleep like a baby. Way easier and cleaner than with alcohol.
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I need weed for sleep, but also to be awake.
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that experience was almost fifty years ago, I thought I was having some real brain event, I wasn’t sure I was going to wake up
as myself, I couldn’t think two words together, thought I was, uh, fragmented. 😬
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Happily woke up OK. 👍
I mean, that’s my opinion, LOL.
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@angelastella @punishmenthurts @autistics stuff like that happens to me a lot where things bother me but seemingly do not bother other people. then i start spiraling and panicking because i dont understand why it bothers me and no one else. then i end up feeling guilty because it bothers me. then i start having a meltdown because im feeling insane about the whole situation.
the autistic shame cycle strikes again!
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"What's wrong with these people?" Yeah, I know.
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@angelastella @autistics @punishmenthurts i would not be surprised if the dsm combined it all under neurodivergence in the next version *but* i still believe that adhd and autism is far less related than what people actually want it to be.
one good point, autistic people are bottom up thinkers on the whole while people with adhd can be either top down or bottom up. you already have a significant difference in thought processing that can lead to multiple misinterpretations and other issues that cause interpersonal strife.
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Hmm, definitely bottom-up at heart. Learned top-down later and fragmentarily. And yes, it is at the root of miscommunication a lot of the time, even between NTs.
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I want them to find out more on the testing thing… I want to know my categories more specifically… felt like I got diagnosed with everything.
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I also kinda like the PDA label and the NVLD things cause they feel closer? But they arent in there. I really want presentation styles. Its kinda annoying cause I think my presentation though recognizably autistic to other autistics… is very presentation different. My friends describe me as maskless…
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Hell, I really wasn't up to speed with these. Still learning at close to 50 because they cut us off from each other. (No, I'm not bitter, what an idea.)
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"I got mine, fuck you" is the rough version of that.
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I find that so, so frustrating.
When I speak, the message is in the fucking words. Not the microcues. Not the body language. Not the tone. I'm verbal.
And yes, it's pretty useless around neurotypicals.
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the very stuff we have to listen to them bragging about in school, how smart humans are to have spoken language!
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Drives ya nuts. 😠💜
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Yeah, humans. Don't you know that we mutants don't really belong to the species?
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it was surely true at some point, we do have spoken language, but it’s one of those sci-fi stories where they’ve forgotten how it works 😀😠
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glory days 😜
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Poloniousmonk
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My theory is that we evolved as a second locus of power in a tribal society. You had the leader, who maintained power through charm and violence. And you had the gender-queer medicine person who was respected as a thinker. When the leader was about to lemming the tribe off a cliff, the medicine person would intervene. And the leader knew to back down.
Just my $0.02
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Ángela Stella Matutina
in reply to Poloniousmonk • • •@Uair @punishmenthurts @emily_rugburn @autistics
Agnostic about that hypothesis (actually, fuck me if I know how to get evidence for or against it) but sounds entirely plausible.
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Poloniousmonk
in reply to Ángela Stella Matutina • • •@angelastella @punishmenthurts @emily_rugburn @autistics
I just make shit up, but I'm pretty good at it.
I've been doing my own thinking all my life. I've got a head full of state secrets, and nobody ever told 'em to me. I never signed no NDA. I just figured that shit out on my own.
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Ángela Stella Matutina
in reply to Poloniousmonk • • •@Uair @punishmenthurts @emily_rugburn @autistics
And don't you dare have a glitch in your lexical-semantic network and substitute a word for another. They will use that against you instantly and no correction will get things back on track.
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Ángela Stella Matutina
in reply to sonja • • •@emily_rugburn @Uair @punishmenthurts @autistics
Of course, NTs play these stupid status and domination games all the time and they won't ever believe we don't have either the skill or the inclination for that.
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Poloniousmonk
in reply to Ángela Stella Matutina • • •@angelastella @emily_rugburn @punishmenthurts @autistics
I've got nothing. I don't have a job, I only have 2 people in my life and one is pretty nonverbally autistic, and I'm broke as a joke. I don't have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out.
And I /still/ have better things to do with my time than play those stupid status games. Those are for punks who don't have it. If you really do, you don't give a shit.
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Goiterzan/Amygdalai Lama
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that’s a tough one for me, I love the perfect word, even if no-one knows it and it’s as long as your arm. 😳😇
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What helps keep me grounded is I know the fancier the words are, it’s often a sign of bullshit, so I try to make myself say things in plain language, if it can’t be said plainly, it’s probably not true enough.
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Ángela Stella Matutina
in reply to sonja • • •@emily_rugburn @punishmenthurts @Uair @autistics
Fuck yes. Cursing keeps your brain clean as a motherfucking whistle.
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Goiterzan/Amygdalai Lama
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fuckin’ eh 😀
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it’s another layer of complexity, a scale of finely tuned emphasis
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Poloniousmonk
in reply to sonja • • •@emily_rugburn @angelastella @punishmenthurts @autistics
I just got fucked by that. I asked someone if a bill had to be paid up front or could be paid in arrears. Afterward, I figured out he didn't know what "in arrears" meant. He just lied to me instead.
I blame the schools. They teach you to never admit you don't know something and always try to bullshit your way through it.
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Ángela Stella Matutina
in reply to Poloniousmonk • • •@Uair @emily_rugburn @punishmenthurts @autistics
Cheating bastard. And yes, schools teach hypocrisy, manipulation and pathological indifference to your fellow human's suffering.
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Mux2000 (extra-solar)
in reply to Ángela Stella Matutina • • •And that's not by accident.
@Uair @emily_rugburn @punishmenthurts @me @autistics
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Ángela Stella Matutina
in reply to Mux2000 (extra-solar) • • •@Mux @Uair @emily_rugburn @punishmenthurts @autistics
No. It's clearly by design. Cold, calculating will to keep us divided, distrustful of each other and unable to cooperate selflessly.
Poloniousmonk
in reply to Mux2000 (extra-solar) • • •@Mux @angelastella @emily_rugburn @punishmenthurts @autistics
You might like John Taylor Gatto:
dn710202.ca.archive.org/0/item…
Jonathan Lamothe
in reply to sonja • •@sonja @Actually Autistics I don't know that I've noticed it in exactly that way, but my masking has become so deeply ingrained over the years that I seldom give people the opportunity unless I'm very close with them.
This has occasionally been to my detriment, but it has made me into a really solid independent learner when I find something I really want to sink my teeth into.
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Energetic Nova
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Im missing a rudder for learning on my own. Feels like im drifting in space…
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in reply to StarkRG • •DFX4509B (Joshua Mason)
in reply to Jonathan Lamothe • • •Talking on the phone is something I've always sucked at, while I'm completely fluent when typing out text messages and do that on the reg.
Also, it's possible to manage sensory issues and the like; I used to have major issues with getting goopy stuff on my skin, so things like paint, glue, etc, for the longest time as a kid, for example, although I have since learned to manage that and it's not really an issue for me anymore, but that still takes a lot of time and effort to get to that point and sensory issues don't just go away even if they're successfully managed; they still exist.
Jonathan Lamothe
in reply to DFX4509B (Joshua Mason) • •@DFX4509B (Joshua Mason) Yeah, my biggest problem is that my mouth doesn't have a backspace key. I can draft and re-draft written correspondence before hitting send, but when I say a thing, it's just out there.
Also, I sometimes need multiple passes over a sentence to process what someone has said (or written). People get upset when I ask them to repeat certain things more than once. When it's written, I just move my eyes back to the beginning of the sentence as many times as necessary and nobody's any the wiser (except for me, I guess).
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