@actuallyautistic
A couple of posts today made me think about the connection between masking and imposter syndrome, especially for those of us who have realised late that we are autistic. I have long believed that there are essentially two aspects to the way that we masked. Masking ourselves from the world and masking ourselves from ourselves and that both of these contributed to being able to stay below the radar of realising what we were for so long. But, perhaps, the most important one, was not the face we showed the world, mostly because I doubt if that was ever as good as we thought it was, but the mirror we learnt to see ourselves in.
That internal masking of ourselves can take many forms.
I thought it was just me.
But, everyone does it this way.
No one else is bothered, or even seems to be noticing. I must be just imagining it, or too sensitive. It can't be real.
I've tried talking about it, but no one took me seriously, they thought I was joking. It's obviously just me. I really must be broken, or mad.
I can't see myself anywhere, I can't be right.
I can't be this way, no one else is.
I must be wrong.
And so much else...
So much of it is denial and disbelieve, as much as anything, and it doesn't go away once we begin to realise the truth. It doesn't magically lose its power. It has to be faced and defeated as a deliberate act of de-masking, that, perhaps, never really ends, because we've carried and tended to it for too long. And, all the time, it is a voice of doubt and so-called reason in our minds that can fuel our imposter syndrome. That can make us doubt our journey, our revelations, our truth. Because that was always its job. It is the reason we created it. To mask ourselves from the truth. Because, it wasn't the truth we saw, or were able to accept.
This isn't to say, by any means, that it is the only bone our imposter syndrome will chew on. But, for those of us who are late realising our truth, it is perhaps a particularly meaty one. Because it has been with us for so long, our only answer to the darkness we lived in and the only world we could see.
#Autism
#ActuallyAutistic
BashStKid
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
in reply to BashStKid • • •Ketata Mohamed 🐧💻🎮
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •F4GRX Sébastien
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Ruud
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •This is a good initiative. It's one of the difficult moderation issues: you want to keep your users safe from scammers, but you don't want to make a mistake and block an actual person.
Of course Palestinians are welcome on mastodon.world. (Or any other of our instances)
Aral Balkan
in reply to Ruud • • •@ruud Thank you, I’ll add you to the list, really appreciate it 😀
And, please, if you have any accounts you’re not sure about, let me know and we can try and verify them.
Ruud
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
in reply to Ruud • • •David Culley
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Dear @hachyderm, some Palestinian accounts like @mohshbair or @Dr_Nadeen98 are hidden from Hachyderm users to protect them from bots, but these accounts and probably some more aren't bots.
They're actual Palestians living in Gaza under genocide, and have been verified by multiple people who had video calls with them.
@aral and @joynewacc run a website gaza-verified.org that lists accounts you can definitely unhide from Hachyderm users. See the message above in the thread.
Gaza Verified
gaza-verified.orgHachyderm
in reply to David Culley • • •@davidculley
Hello! Thank you for reaching out to us; however, these accounts aren't independently limited. They're limited because right now there is a temporary limit on Mastodon Social while they combat a spam wave that has been on-and-off since mid July. We have posted about it here:
hachyderm.io/@hachyderm/115112…
And Mastodon Social has posted about it on and off, including here:
mastodon.social/@staff/1149222…
We've received a few questions about the Mastodon Social limit over the course of the weekish they've been Limited due to the latest wave. To reiterate: the instance-wide limit is temporary, and as the wave dies down to manageable levels, we'll lift it.
Thanks!
CC
@aral
@mohshbair @Dr_Nadeen98
@joynewacc
Hachyderm (@hachyderm@hachyderm.io)
Hachyderm.ioAral Balkan
in reply to Hachyderm • • •@davidculley @mohshbair @Dr_Nadeen98 Thank you; appreciate the explanation.
It’s all the more important that we discourage Palestinians in Gaza from creating accounts on mastodon.social.
I’ll add a note to gaza-verified.org
Is @hachyderm a safe space that we can recommend for them?
Gaza Verified
gaza-verified.orgHachyderm
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •All accounts, including Palestinian accounts, that follow our code of conduct (Don’t be a dick - No hacking - No violence - No fascism - No colonialism - No white supremacy - No religious extremism - No nationalism - No racism - No homophobia - No transphobia - Safe space for LGBTQIA+ - Safe space for neurodivergent) are welcome here. Depending on how people intend to use their accounts, we do ask that people CW if they're going to post war imagery and similar.
🌈 Welcome!
@davidculley @mohshbair @Dr_Nadeen98 @joynewacc
Aral Balkan
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Unknown parent • • •mkst
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Unknown parent • • •Randy Hughes-King
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •don Elías (como los buses) 🥨
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •thank you for doing this effort 💪
@joynewacc
Aral Balkan
in reply to don Elías (como los buses) 🥨 • • •sb arms & legs
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
in reply to sb arms & legs • • •nonlinear
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Oh that’s good to know. We need someone to vet.
Truth is the more people accept these messages the more thd chance for fake accounts. With money being funneled AWAY from those who need it.
It’s a self-defeating prophecy situation and yes, an institution to vet, into an allowlist, helps to break the cycle.
Travis Scott
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
Unknown parent • • •🌱🏴🅰️🏳️⚧️🐧🔧📎 Ambiyelp
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •I’ve updated the list of Mastodon instances whose admins have publicly announced that their servers are safe spaces for people from Gaza:
Arabic: gaza-verified.org/guide-arabic…
English: gaza-verified.org/guide/#serve…
If you’d like yours added to the list, please let me know by replying here.
Mastodon and the fediverse is the last lifeline for many people facing the unthinkable – genocide and famine – in Gaza.
Let’s do everything we can to make them welcome, seen, and loved here.
💕
#mastodon #fediverse #Gaza #Palestine #genocide #famine #GazaVerified
غزة موثقة
gaza-verified.orgSean O'Brien
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •PrivacySafe Social
Mastodon hosted on privacysafe.socialAral Balkan
in reply to Sean O'Brien • • •Mahmoud From Gaza 🇵🇸🍉
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
in reply to Mahmoud From Gaza 🇵🇸🍉 • • •jdotcom
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
in reply to jdotcom • • •Winter (familier) (argot) (vulgaire)
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
in reply to Winter (familier) (argot) (vulgaire) • • •@winter Thank you, I’ll add yours on this evening 😀
💕
💜💙💚💛🧡❤️ vanta rainbow black ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Edvin Malinovskis
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •as a regular user, would it be better to contact you first/instead of reporting to admins when being directly contacted by such accounts?
I am fairly certain that they were bots just due to their behaviour outside of the messages they sent to me, but obviously didn't put all that much effort into verifying that before reporting
Aral Balkan
in reply to Edvin Malinovskis • • •Edvin Malinovskis
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •Aral Balkan
Unknown parent • • •Aral Balkan
Unknown parent • • •No such thing as late. I’m limiting it to Mastodon instances just to keep things simple for everyone at the moment but I’ve bookmarked this if we get to a point where we have the bandwidth to support Lemmy also 😀
Really appreciate your support and I might have had a little chuckle at one of the posts on the anarchist.nexus server ;)
💕
jmcnaughton
in reply to Aral Balkan • • •All Palestinians and anti-fascist allies are welcome on freefree.ps/about
We have a "Galaxy" plan with masto.host, with elastic search.
It's mostly just me moderating, and sometimes I take social media breaks from reading the home feed but I always check the server multiple times daily for reports, new user requests, DMs, and mentions.
If anyone wants to help, or would like a freefree.ps subdomain to operate a new fediverse server, I am open to that!
Free Free Palestine!
Mastodon hosted on freefree.ps